I was so embarrassed when my parents didn't recognize me

My parents didn’t recognize me after gaining about 50lbs.⁣
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I attended a high school for a year as an exchange student in the U.S.
It was those days with no internet and international calls were crazy expensive. So, I wrote some letters to my parents occasionally but I don’t think I included any photos.⁣
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A year passed and I was super excited to see my parents back at Narita airport, Japan. I saw them, I’m waving frantically but they were giving me some frown faces. I thought..that’s odd...⁣ ⁣
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So, I ran to them and gave a big hug. They finally recognized that it was their daughter waving and hugging them!⁣ ⁣
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My over the top excitement instantly became a huge embarrassment. ⁣ ⁣
I lived with the embarrassment, the body shame, too long. I should have asked for help, I should have focused on my inner beauty, but couldn’t. ⁣ ⁣
I shouldn’t have valued others’ values and opinions but that’s all it mattered back then. ⁣ ⁣
Cultural ideals and norms totally won over me, too strong that I didn’t know who I was anymore. I was always looking for someone I should be and validations from others.⁣ ⁣
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Can you relate?
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Much love,⁣
Kanna